I have started writing this post at least three times. I’m not really sure what keeps stopping me. I guess I don’t really feel like I have much to say. Or maybe I just don’t know how to say what is on my mind. Friends have asked me how I’m doing, and I don’t even really know how to respond. This semester has been busy, for sure, and for some reason all of the busy-ness has been somewhat demotivating. I have struggled with feeling dry – both spiritually and emotionally. I think that these recent spiritually “dry” times have been harder this semester because I’m in seminary, which means I’m supposed to be extra spiritual, or something, right?
Last night I realized that in the midst of all that I have going on, I have let my devotional time and scripture study drift to the perimeter of my life instead of the center. Instead of clinging to Christ and His word in the busy time, I have allowed it to be something that I fit in when I have time. I realized how backwards and sinful this thinking is last night. How can I cry out to God and ask him to fill me if I am not reading, studying and meditating on the living water of His word?
Lord, revive in me a heart for your word. So I can say as the psalmist does,
How sweet are your words to my taste,
sweeter than honey to my mouth!
I gain understanding from your precepts;
therefore I hate every wrong path.
Your word is a lamp to my feet
and a light for my path.
Psalm 119:103-105, NIV
I have also been learning about a lot of awesome things this semester, especially in my Christian Philosophy class. Hopefully at some point I will find it in me to write about them.